I'm very confused at the present. Edgar has just asked me to marry him. And I accepted. My mind says to me that it's right to accept this proposal, but my heart tells me the opposite. If I'll marry Edgar Linton I'd be the greatest lady in the hole neighbourhood. Besides Edgar is handsome rich man who is pleasant to be with. I'll have a fine and stable life at the Thrushcross Grange. I also get along with her sister Isabel very well. I'd definitely spend many great times with them there.
But my heart and my soul doesn't feel the same. They know that Heathcliff is my soul mate- mine and his souls are the same. If my brother Hindley hadn't pushed him so low I won't even consider marrying Edgar. But now is too late. I can't be with him. Or can I? What kind of future we will have? Not bright, especially as long as Hindley is alive. He heard my conversation with Nelly where I said the same thing and run away. Now his gone. And I'm even more confused: whether I should listen to my heart and soul or my mind? I think that sometimes it's better if you listen to your mind and sometimes the opposite. But this time I'm sure that if I'll marry Edgar I'll have a carefree and luxurious life, but I'd be miserable. I do love him but in a differend way.
I think that I must find Heathcliff no matter where he is, explain my feelings to him and we have to leave Wuthering Heights together and forever. Only then we can be happy together and start our lives all over again.
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